‘I had rent arrears of 500K,’ Tedd Josiah on battling depression after the loss…
Kenyan music producer cum businessman Tedd Josiah has shared on how he ended up depressed after losing his wife and his job.
Josiah lost his wife Reginah Katar just a few month after delivering their baby fondly known as Jay.
Apart from dealing with the loss of his wife.,Tedd had to learn to take care of a new born, he also lost his job thus he had rent arrears.
Through his social media platform he shared,
‘I remember these early months with JayJay.
Loosing my job, running up rent arrears of nearly 500k, my heart bleeding everyday from the pain of loss and grief, having no one around me at all and the worst part… THINKING TO MYSELF EVERYDAY “YOURE GOING TO FAIL!”.
“You’re going to loose, you’re loosing your mind, your house, your job is gone! Your now going to fail this child in the worst way! What do you think you’re doing trying to raise an infant alone???? This is going to end up in premium tears…. how about you just give up already?? You know you’re a failure…”’
Tedd slowly got into depression and it’s only through the intervention of loved ones that he was able to come out.
‘Depression had me locked in my room daily and the few people who brought light into my life was JayJay and someone else who committed to making sure I DONT break.
We are going to our fourth year now without mama, it’s been a process of self determination and discovery, ups and downs, building upon a legacy and keeping on going.
God has your back even when you walk through the valley of the shadows of death. I been there and I know. GOD CAME THROUGH in the valley of the shadows of death.
Please never EVER give up.’
Tedd is now at a good place as he has gone ahead to establish Joka Jok a company that deals with production of leather products mainly bags.
The company was established in memory of his late wife Reginah.